Ups, Downs and Inconsistencies of Life

Just been to lectures, you know when you go to something and come out of it again wondering what the hell was the point and what on earth did I learn? That was one of my lectures today...pointless!

Today my adventure of uni had its ups and downs, its incredible to think that week by week I encounter down after down with a few highs thrown in to keep me going. I call uni an adventure to make me think that it will end soon. I do love it but it's just so difficult sometimes.
I am an optimistic person honest, my blogs will probably not reflect it BUT I honestly am...mostly.

So the housing hunt is on for next year...it's a scary concept as I'm one of these people that puts things off for as long as possible, until they can't be ignored any longer. All my flat mates and closest friends here now have their house sorted, great. No, I am thrilled but it's just a reminder that I actually have nowhere to live and need to sort it out soon. On the up side (I am an optimist) I have found people to share with, 2 girls from church, which will help me HUGELY.
But I'm just increasingly aware that my life has not been stable for the last month now and isn't likely to get stable until my second year possibly even later. I've just about got settled with this flat, this room and I already have to think about the new room I'll have to live in. Is there no consistency in this world? At the back of my mind I can hear a yes...God is constant-never changing and always there.

And although I'm optimistic, hopeful even I know that I probably won't see or speak to these people again, which seems all too pointless to me as I've had soo many good times with them and been so honest with them. (They're all living together apart from me and 2 other guys) It'll feel like I've wasted a whole year on people that will become just faint memories.
Seems bazaar to say the least. We say we'll stay in touch and talk and catch up, but it'll never be the same. Me and one girl I really want to stay close to, she's just like me and this guy who I'm pretty close to, but I have the feeling that he won't keep in touch, but I'm hoping they both will. They're all great, so i'm hoping it'll work out...but I guess like most things I'll have to wait and see.

So many people come in and out of our lives, each one having their own effect on our lives. Whether its the smallest thing or the biggest.