"I can't get no sleep" [Faithless]...

I went to go for an early night, yet my heart and mind were having none of it. They were full of thoughts, crushing me and getting to the point of implosion if not explosion!

It's amazing how many little lessons I seem to learn in one day, well at least my blog will be different daily! I have been back 3 days and already I am feeling drained-emotionally and physically. There are a few cures in life that work for me when it comes to clearing my head...

1. Run. You're adrenaline is pumping, music blaring-spurring you on, wind rushing in your face and with every heavy foot step another problem is gone. (Until you stop)
2. Walking. Walking and talking it through and praying takes it all away, brings a peace, a freedom and a time of reflection. Time to think.
3. Water. Free flowing water, whether it be a shower or the rain, it pouring over you seems to 'wash' every care away, makes you feel cleaner...better

I've done all three tonight, as I have been so angry (I'm ashamed to say) with people and with life and dare I say it with my loving and faithful God. I was strongly aware of the injustice I felt for being scapegoated and made some strong melodramatic and irrational claims whilst walking and talking.

As much as I love university there are times where I wish I were somewhere else, but this is where I'm meant to be. After half an hour of walking at a ridiculously late hour on my own (my mother would be appalled!), I headed back and felt at peace again. Only to feel stifled by my 4 walls reminding me of the anger I had, but I opened the window, prayed and I am at peace again, bad feelings all gone.

No early night, but my head will hit the pillow and sleep will be gladly received.

Once again I've learnt to rely on God and that without Him I have nothing and am nothing-which may seem a strange concept, but He is my soul purpose.

What's yours?