Too many topics for a simple title...

No rest for the wicked or indeed for the saved!

I knew coming back to uni would mean that drama would soon be on the horizon but I never dreamed/thought that it would hit early on a Monday morning! I woke up to a shocking text and the remnants of the drama left at home, but also I woke up to a Facebook email that was encouraging and answered plenty of questions and to be honest choked me a little!

It's just nice to know (as I have said previously) that someone is thinking of you and is happy to give advice and happy to listen and answer any problems or questions I have, whether it's out of genuine care or nosiness...it's lovely to feel loved! That's one thing I must encourage you on (reader, whoever you may be) if you ever feel like you should randomlly talk to someone, send a letter, just send something saying thinking of you or whatever, do it. Because I can't think of any time, where someone would not appreciate it.

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God is having a field day! Literally He must be loving this funny chain of events, and just loving how I'm going to react. Testing me over and over again, as if not getting what I wanted wasn't enough, He is now giving me excess of what I don't want.

(I'm remaining cryptic)

WOW! Someone at uni has just got engaged which is bizarre because a few months ago everything was so different, so me shining as a single woman is definately getting harder and I think God knows this.

God knows I want a relationship, God knows I want someone to love me and be there for me and me to want to do the same and more to the point God is giving me the opportunities, but none that I want and when I think about it-He is teaching me to be patient.

Patience-that horrible word that I have learnt time and time again, but God still feels He needs to teach me, just because it makes me push harder into Him and lean further into Him and makes me amazingly uncomfortable! Gradually hour by hour as the talk of fiancees and boyfriends gets talked of more and more, the more I need God, the more likely it is that I will end up on my knees.

Being single is hard and it is my adventure for the next...goodness knows how long.

So how does one cope with it?

Like I said run to God, lean into Him, be patient.

One day, many years from now (I'm sure!) I may look back and wish for singleness again, for time to myself and time to look out for just me. I will look back as I have done previously and be proud of the lesson(s) I've learnt in patience.