A week of adventure...

What a week?!

Highs and lows and moments where you need to catch your breath! What a fantastic week though, despite both the highs and the lows God has blessed me with an action packed, emotional rollercoaster! I love that it was so busy-meeting with people, socialising and bonding.

My weekend was fantastic, Friday I got to go pubbing and clubbing and despite emotional burdens coming down heavy on me I managed to dance the night away and come back smiling! Was a great night, full of moments that I look back on with a smile. The hen do on Saturday again was a fantastic day and despite being surrounded by married and 'taken' women I found it surprisingly unsuffocating and although I'd love what everyone one of them has, being single is my adventure for right now as today has told me...

I woke up this morning after having an unrestful last hour of sleep, I felt nervous and my gut instinct was "something's going to happen today" women's intuition is a fascinating thing? God is fantastic-He warned me.

God met with me strongly in the worship as I tried to push on into Him and lay all my troubled thoughts and nerves on to Him. The end song was a crucial part for me, singing "arms high and heart abandoned...my soul Lord to you surrendered, all I am is yours..." I sung with all my heart and as loudly as possibly with my arms stretched to the full, the inevitable that was to come at the end of the meeting now was in God's hands (it always was), but I had let go and give it to Him...my eyes fully on God. The nerves were still partially there, coming and going but when God spoke to me about what was going to happen, it wasn't good news but it was news I could prepare for nevertheless and although upsetting I was at peace.

(By the way, I'm not going to mention what all the nerves were about because it's too easy to get into in depth details and that wouldn't be fair for all involved, including me!)

When it came to it, my God was a faithful God and I was ready, I tried to act calm yet as always my mouth was dry and my heart racing, but God is a faithful God (as I've said) and He had answered my prayers, I wanted more information on a situation and He answered my prayer...could have made it easier for me though!! So although the news I received and chatted about and went through was disappointing, upsetting and maybe a little confusing, God had prepared me for it and I am ready to go back to uni-do not want to explain it all though.

My walk home was the opposite to what I thought it would be, I thought my thoughts would be dark and full of bitter disappointment, would have been focused on the negative. Instead praise was on my lips and a joy in my heart! Not because the situation called for it but because I was struck by God's love and how He is an integral part of our lives. I want to focus on God, give Him my all, just like others I know do to. Sometimes we have to sacrifice what we think is 'right' or what feels like 'human instinct' and keep our eyes on our Heavenly Father.

This entry is already far too long but I'm bursting with praise, God answered my prayers this week and weekend, I got the conversation I wanted, the time I wanted, I spent a week with the people I wanted and God gave me clarity. How can I not be full of praise? When there are situations that are disappointing, we need to run to God and I do still believe that what I want to happen, will happen, just not now. I have a faithful God who has helped me guard my heart and mind and although it often wanders it always comes back to Him. It is in these situations that God wants us to find Him and draw closer to Him...so when it comes to it will you run to Him or run away?

MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!
If you doubt that...you don't know my God and you need to know Him better and deeper.