"Break my heart, for what breaks yours"...

So as the previous blog stated I've been effected by the idea of being in anguish for God.

It is so sad and yet so true that we have become desensitised and dare I say 'used to' the terrible things happening in the world around us. It is so easy now to detach ourselves from them, particularly if they are abroad and not happening to us, it can all just seem as though it is worlds apart. But as was brought up today, we need to be affected by it.

We need to see injustice and ache for better, I want to watch the news and have a genuine heart for the people I see on it, not just a twang of sympathy. No, much more.

It is a dangerous desire, to want to be ruined by God and to have a weeping heart for the evil in this world. I feel like I've got 'used to' seeing it all and shut myself away.

I'm really good at running away from things; feelings, situations and procrastinating until it is just a faint memory; but after today I don't think I want that or can do that anymore.

God has given us hearts to feel what He feels when He looks down at this world. "Break my heart, for what breaks yours", lyrics I've sung before but now they penetrate me and make me stop and genuinely want it.

I want my heart to be so in tune with God's that when I see oppressed women or broken homes, I don't want to think of it as 'the norm' but I want to melt with the desperation for those situations, I want to ache and pray fervently for better.

I want to long and weep and fight for better.

It's dangerous and dare I say radical to want to live like that, but I want it. I will never feel anguish like Jesus did and that is the worst it could be. If you haven't already, check out David Wilkerson on Anguish: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGMG_PVaJoI

Jeremiah wept for his city, he cried out to God to save his nation, his neighbours, to save them despite the evil in those places.

I don't remember the last time I did that. I want to weep and wail for those that are hurting and broken and lost.

Goodbye to my old heart of stone and hello heart of flesh.